Toni Braxton has revealed some very personal news about herself. Toni has told the media that she had a secret abortion before her 2-kids were born. The 46-year-old singer fell pregnant with her then-boyfriend, (now ex-husband) Keri Lewis‘ child before they married in April 2001 and decided to terminate the baby as she was taking Accutane, a prescription acne treatment which can have serious side-effects for unborn babies. And while Toni tells Entertainment Tonight ‘I am more ashamed of myself for doing that’, in a new interview, she admitted in her autobiography that she would have had the abortion anyway. But she was left devastated when her second son was diagnosed with autism and believed she was being punished for terminating her pregnancy. I don’t know if I could have shared such a story with a world of people who judge and throw stones all the time. But, big ups to Toni for being transparent.
The New York Daily News quotes Braxton in her Unbreak My Heart autobiography where she wrote ‘Is God punishing me for that abortion?‘. She added that she ‘believed that God’s payback was to give my son autism.’ And for weeks after the abortion, she was full of guilt over what she had done. Last July, Braxton officially ended her 12-year marriage with the father of her two sons.
The Unbreak My Heart performer admitted said in her VH1 Behind the Music special in 2012 that the split with Lewis in 2009 took a toll on her.
‘I had to figure out a plan for my life that had nothing to do with him,‘ she said. Toni also implies that she thinks vaccines caused her son’s condition.
“Maybe it’s just a coincidence that after my son’s first MMR vaccine, I began to notice changes in him,” she wrote, noting that after that he wasn’t responsive to affection or as high-spirited as he was before the vaccine.