The estranged father of Kelly Rowland is reaching out to his daughter hoping to reconcile with her after 23 years without contact.  Now her father, 65 year old Christopher Lovett, has stepped up to the plate and is looking for forgiveness. He tells the UK Mirror that he hasn’t seen Kelly in 13 years and admits that his alcohol abuse and angry temper was the reason behind their family falling apart. He also relives the good memories of them singing together when she was a baby as well as the not so great memories of her howling and crying as he yelled and screamed at her mother.

Choking back tears he told The Mirror,

On the Development of His Alcoholism & Anger Issues
“I am a proud man and ­wanted the best for my family so when I lost my job I was utterly ashamed and hid from that shame with drink. When Doris ­challenged me, I would just lose it. No parent should scream and shout in front of their child, and I am sorry to say there were too many times to ­mention that Kelly heard me ­screaming abuse at her mother. Sometimes she would run to her ­bedroom screaming, others she would cling to my trouser leg begging me to stop. When the ­electricity was cut off and we ­received an eviction letter we agreed for Doris to take Kelly to her aunt’s house while I sorted things out.

On His Leaving & Never Seeing Kelly Again
Little did I know the day they left would be the last time I would see my wife and ­daughter ever again. Every time I phoned her aunt’s house she told me Kelly and her mom were out. I had no job, no money, no car and just no way of getting the 20 miles to where they were staying. When six months had passed I begged a friend for a ride to her aunt’s house and she told me they had moved to Texas. I begged her to give me an ­address, but she flat-out refused.”

I knew I had to stop drinking, get a job or I would never see my ­daughter again. And I did. But by then it was too late and they were gone, the two people I loved with all my heart and that tore me up and still does today.[…]I had heard she was doing well singing, but I didn’t know how well ­until I turned on the TV and saw her ­performing [with Destiny’s Child]. I cried and cried, with ­sadness but also with pride at what a wonderful, ­talented young woman Kelly had grown into.”

On Going to a Destiny’s Child Concert & Leaving Kelly a Note
“I sat for the whole concert in one of the cheap seats at the back with tears of joy and utter despair ­rolling down my face. I wrote a note and begged a security guard to pass it to her.

“It said, ‘Darling I have been looking for you. I am so proud of you and I love you so much and I just long to tell you that in ­person.  Love Dad’. But no matter how much I begged the guard he would not believe I was her father.”

On Wanting to Reconnect
“I own a big home now and have retired so I don’t want any of Kelly’s fortune, I just want her love. I just hope she does not become such a big star in England on X Factor that she forgets about her dad ­completely. I’m getting old now – I just hope she reads this and doesn’t leave getting back in touch with me before it is too late.”

Lovett also revealed a time where he drove 8 hours to a Destiny’s Child concert to watch her perform and tried to give her a note but security guards who did not believe he was her real father, denied him.

Gumbumper’s, do you think Kelly should forgive her father? I’m not going to lie, I always thought she looked a little like Matthew Knowles, but I guess not!!

Check out more of his Daily Mirror interviewhere.