Beyonce Knowles just exposed her life for the world to see in her HBO documnetary “Life Is But A Dream.” The film was directed by, executive produced by & stars Beyonce which gives us a never seen before view into her personal life.
What we get to see for the first time: Beyonce revealing first hand that singing is her first passion, A baby belly, Blue Ivy smiling and chillin’ with mommy, Beyonce’s love-gushing birthday toast for Jay at his 2006 birthday party, the twosome singing Coldplay‘s Yellow” to each other, pink rollers she rocked while in labor, and we hear the song she wrote at her saddest point–after her miscarriage.
Check out some the highlights below:
On her miscarriage
Two years ago I was pregnant for the first time. I heard the heartbeat. Something happens when you hear the heartbeat. You truly know there’s life inside you. I picked out names. I envisioned what my child looked like. I was feeling very maternal. My family was so excited. I flew back out NY to get my checkup. And no heartbeat. Literally, the week before, I went to the doctor and everything was fine. But there was no heartbeat. I went into the studio and wrote the saddest song I’d ever written in my life and it was the first song I wrote for my album.
On letting her father go as her manager
I’m feeling very empty because of the relationship with my dad. I’m so fragile at this point. And I feel like my soul has been tarnished. I feel like I had to move on and not work with my dad. And I don’t care if I don’t sell one record ever again. It’s bigger than the record. It’s bigger than the career.
On the biggest reason she wanted to manage herself
At some point you need your support system. You need your family. You’re trying to have an everyday convo with your parents, and you have to talk about schedules. I needed boundaries. And I think my dad needed boundaries. I needed a break. I needed my DAD.
On if she got her relationship with her dad back
No. It was hard. I had to sacrifice my relationship with my dad. It was a stressful, sad difficult time. But I had to let go.
On Blue Ivy’s name
We passed by a beautiful blue tree [overseas]. I think it’s blue ivy. That would be quite appropriate.
On connecting with Jay
We connected on a spiritual level. It’s just a coincidence that he’s also an artist. Hes taught me so much about being an artist. I, like a lot of women, give up so much. But he doesn’t….Having this baby made me love him more than I ever thought was possible. It’s every woman’s dream to feel this way about someone.
On giving birth
I felt like God was giving me the chance to assist in a miracle. There’s something so relieving about life taking over you like that. You’re playing a part in a much bigger show. And that’s what life is….the greatest show on earth. My baby was born out of a conflict in my life. And that conflict had to be settled.
On ended up with a blessed life
My grandmother used to light candles all the time in the church to pray for my mother. I am a result of my grandmother’s prayers. My grandmother prayed for me. My mother prays for me. God is real. And God lives inside of me. It doesn’t matter where I am. I feel it. Like right now, I’m hot. It’s inside of me.